| well hello hah etsison.tumblr.com fsho! |
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| livejournal. yeah i have wayy too many blog places. itsetienne.livejournal.com, & ohbabyitzetienne.blogspot.com, i dont use this anymore though lol |
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| just found out my cousin passed away...
fck
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| i've finally had some down time...time to just RELAX at home since
lately i've been out or at work. whenever i have down time i
think about SO much. and lately i've realized what i have and who
i
have in my life. If things never turned out the way it did, i
wouldnt
be close to all the people im close to now...i've realized when i was
in a relationship i took all my girl friends for granted, i never
really gave them my time, id either make up some excuse that i cant
hang out, or i just wouldnt answer there calls cause i was "too busy"
with u know. but i did hang out, only once in awhile though...i
realized they give me so much of there time and i appreciate it soo
much knowing they DO have boyfriends, and they still manage to balance
out hanging out with me. they ALWAYS make time for me, and
sometimes
their with me more than there boyfriends. theres also one
person ive
gotten a lot closer to, me and her lost touch for about almost 2 years
because of stupid high school issues. and thats abi, honestly,
ive
missed her so much during those two years and we're finally getting
back to how things used to be. she was the girl that always
had my
back, (not that my girls now dont)...if this whole break up issue didnt
happen, abi and I probably wouldnt be talking as much as we do
now...RIGHT when it happened she tried contacting me cause she knew how
bad it crushed me, only because she was there since the beginning when
me and him first started. she knew how much i was into him, she
knew
all the shit i went through just to hang out with him, the
indecisive, hesitations of texting him, talking to him, to almost
giving up on him because of his ex girlfriend. , she always gave me the
greatest advice. . i almost forgot bout another person
i lost touch with, and thats nikki, me and her lost touch for almost 2
years also, it was ALWAYS awkward seeing her at family parties because
we had some issues too. but now, ever since i've been "single"
shes
been there for me...it almost seemed out of the blue, but yah we
started hanging out more and talking on the phone for hours. which is
something i NEVER do with girls. haha...i also see my cousins a lot
more, my guy friends and hung out with a lot of new people,..i didnt
realize till now that i have a lot of friends and family that i
spend
time with. i realized that i have a lot more now, than what i had a
year ago. i depended on ONE person to be that EVERYTHING and i didnt
give out my time with other people. which wasnt such a great
idea. i
KNOW im never going to be that person ever again, i wouldnt want to
risk losing friends just because of relationship. |
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| to whoever reads this still...
all my albums on myspace are PUBLIC! so take one last look at it cause im deleting it REALLY soon.
finally LG.
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